On Orgasms...

J is the MASTER of my body.

Did you know that the first day we met IRL we fucked? It was a wonderful day of greasy cheeseburgers, foreign flicks, and fucking - does it get any better than that?

The things He did to my body that first night blew my mind. It was like He had my owners manual! When He works me over and I'm blindfolded I don't know *what* He is doing, but it makes me cum over and over again. Is He using His tongue, His dick or His fingers? If I can't see, sometimes I can't tell... He can work His magic and give me a G-spot O, or a clit based O almost instantly! I can't do that to myself, and me and my vagina are like THIS! *crosses fingers*

Rules, Orgasms, and Punishments...

I had an orgasm without permission this week.

I knew that J would have no way of knowing that I had broken a rule unless I confessed, and that got me thinking about submission and what it means to me. If I only follow orders at my convenience, what kind of submissive am I?

So I considered it.

I confessed to J that I came without permission, and He was upset that I had broken one of His rules. He wanted me to know that His rules are not arbitrary, there is a very good reason behind each and every one of them (whether or not I am allowed to know is up to Him).

J is Back in Town, Part 1

So my two week long whirlwind of debauchery has come to a close, and I'm left with bruises, a sore pussy, HOT memories, a new love for clothespins, and one of J's shirts.

We got A LOT done in 2 weeks, my friends!

J told me to look sexy and wear a skirt when I picked Him up at the airport in front of his co-workers. I primped for hours, had a long relaxing bath, moisturized my entire body, gave myself a pedicure, and tried on 25 different outfits before I settled on what I was going to wear. Then I get word that His flight was delayed, and then it was delayed again. It was TORTURE! I headed out to the airport anyway and paced in front of the screen showing the domestic arrivals for about 45 minutes before I saw that His flight had finally landed.

J, Axle and a Sex Tape

I'm working on editing our latest sex video and it's much more difficult then I had anticipated. Here are 2 screenshots from the first few minutes. I'm too tired to write/edit any more right now **yawn** Enjoy!

D'awww

J can really work a riding crop

ENNEAGRAM Personality Test Results

Hey all,

I took this test as a lark but it was pretty dead on. This is invaluable information for all you people out there who want to charm/befriend me ;)

Your Enneagram type is TWO "The Helper" (aka "The Charmer").

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing,
and sensitive to other people's needs.

Shit, There is not Enough Time in the Day!

Fuck, Dudes...

Sorry I haven't been in touch, but shit has been crazy!  I just got a new job, but I was only given 8 days to study for my licensing exam (and they recommend 75+ hours of studying) and J came home.  Between those two things I have been so busy!  I've also got no money, a drug dealer owes me $800 that he refuses to pay for no good reason, and I have $40 in my bank account.  I wasn't able to pay my rent, my car payment, and I run out of my prescription drugs tomorrow and have no way of raising to $150 for them.

I've been stressed.